April 30/1996 Sometimes you wonder. You see and think it's hpeless, useless, not right, wrong, or whatever. You see beneath what the person says and you try to find the reason, sometimes you find it, sometimes you don't. You wonder why or what and wonder what you will do. The feeling of frustration, anger, madness and stress is just too hard. It's like it's all bottled up and about to explode. You wonder whne it will stop, when you wouldn't have to deal with it anymore.