January 30/2000

It's been so long since i was really happy. I can't even remember. But, you see, I was never really happy. There was always a part of me that hated something. Even though sometimes I would forget about that hate, it's always been there. Things never were right. I always had a way of finding something wrong. I guess I could never accept the fact that I could be happy, so I never was. Even now. How long has it been? Since... since there was a time I couldn't remember, when I couldn't realize. Even then I was scared. People change, feelings change, but somethings never do. What has changed? nothing.