January 30/2000
It's been so long since i was really happy. I can't even remember.
But, you see, I was never really happy. There was always a part of
me that hated something. Even though sometimes I would forget about
that hate, it's always been there. Things never were right. I always
had a way of finding something wrong. I guess I could never accept
the fact that I could be happy, so I never was. Even now. How long
has it been? Since... since there was a time I couldn't remember,
when I couldn't realize. Even then I was scared. People change,
feelings change, but somethings never do. What has changed? nothing.
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